Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear
“We have always wanted to adopt, but we don’t think we could afford it.”
I cannot tell you how many times someone has made this statement to me. And every time, with sincerity and full assurance of faith, I respond the same way:
“Well, if that really is the only reason holding you back, then you should absolutely do it! You will be amazed to see how God will provide!”
This was true of our first adoption, but to be honest it was not as scary as it is this time. The first time around, we did not already have one special needs child at home. I was able to work twice as many hours, and we were able to cash flow half of the expenses. We have always tried to be very conscientious stewards of the Lord’s money that has been entrusted to us. We have always worked hard and set very clear goals with our finances. We have prided ourselves on following the Dave Ramsey plan and have most always been in a position to give to others when the need arose.
But this adoption came as a surprise, directly following our stay in Baltimore and all of the care that Jian required there. Besides the obvious fears concerning Faith’s health, financial worries have been our second concern behind that. Because of her heart condition, Faith’s adoption is being expedited. The Home Study process, which took us 4 months last time, is already finished and only took us 5 weeks this time! It is realistic to believe that we could be traveling to bring Faith home before Christmas this year!
As I add up what we have already spent for the home study and prior approval plus upcoming dossier fees, 2 more agency payments, all fees that will go to China, travel expenses and plane tickets for the 4 of us, the total is coming to approximately $40,000. (The variable here is the price of plane tickets, which we won’t know until just before we travel.) We need to fundraise the entire amount this time.
Every time anxiety tries to creep up, I stop myself and ask, “Are you 100% sure that God has asked your family to do this?” The answer is absolutely yes, and I recall all of the ways that the Lord has assured me over the past several months. And then I tell myself that I don’t know how, but I know that He will provide all that we will need.
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33
A few weeks ago I received a phone call from 2 of the teachers at Jian’s school. They told me that they both had come to school that day thinking the same thing—that they wanted to take the task of fundraising off of my plate and organize a fundraiser for us. What an incredible gift! I am so looking forward to our community coming together to celebrate bringing Faith home. Multiple people have contacted me to say that they want to donate their services to our silent auction–very, very nice services—without me even having to ask.
In addition to our dinner and silent auction, I am excited to launch our T-shirt fundraiser! The message on the shirt is a principle that Daniel and I have always tried to put into practice when making decisions in our marriage, and it is true now more than ever.
In addition, I have identified 3 adoption grants that may or may not be awarded to our family, but I plan to spend the next week or so applying for them. After Faith comes home, she will require lots of medical care. Initially she will see many specialists and undergo lots of testing. After that, our best case scenario is that we will travel to Atlanta every 3 months to see a cardiology specialist there, and she will take several (I think 5) prescription medications every month. Prayerfully, she will feel well under this regimen for several years before requiring more drastic measures. Realistically, there are other issues that may arise, but I’m going to believe in the best case scenario.
We are setting our fundraising goal at $40,000. If somehow we raise more than is required to cover our adoption expenses, we will keep the excess in an account to be used for her medical care once we get home.
The truth is that I hate asking for help. I hate feeling like I can’t do everything myself. And I think that is exactly what the Lord is teaching me—to depend on Him.
Come unto me all you who labor and are heaven laden and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
Here is the link to our T-shirt fundraiser. Feel free to share with your friends or church groups. The campaign will last for 3 weeks, and we have set a lofty goal of selling 500 shirts!